beginning......

If anyone is there and wants to know what I mean by "the mystery" I'm talking about all the stuff we don't understand or really even know for certain like:

• is there are a god?
• what happens when we die?
• does prayer really change anything?
• why are we here - really?  (and if you grew up Southern Baptist like I did, you know the "church answer" for this one - but I'm talking about REALLY why do you think you're here?  No quotes from some sermon you heard - insert YOUR thoughts)

And the list could go on, of course, but you get the idea, right?  I've been searching for the answer to these questions for years now and sometimes I think I have at least some of them.  And then they elude me.  One thing I know for certain is that I like to meditate.  And when I say this I don't have any particular form in mind.  I have tried several.  I've read books on it.  I've practiced it. And I like it.  Sometimes I can't really "get into it".  But I've had enough moments when I've really been "into it" that I know something happened. I'm not sure what.  I can't quite describe it but I felt peaceful afterwards and this peace lasted into the day - at least long enough for me to know that SOMETHING had happened - changed - made a difference.  I like to believe that what happened was a connection to the Divine - whatever that is.

Therefore, the biggest mystery to me is: if meditation is something that I LIKE to do and I feel good when I'm doing it and after I'm done and I sense that it makes a difference - WHY do I avoid it?  Oh, I have begun "a practice" on several occasions.  I might have even managed to meditate every day for 2 weeks.  But then something happens.  I skip a day.  I'm too tired to get up early enough in the morning (before work).  Or I'm too tired when I get home after work.  Or I'm too busy. Or I travel out of town.  Or I have guests in the house.  It might be as limp as I just don't feel like it.  What's up with all the excuses?  This, Readers, is a mystery!  Moreover, I've talked to other folks who tell me the same thing about meditation or prayer or devotionals or exercise...............so its not just ME, right?

So the purpose of this blog today is to promise myself and anyone who might be listening that I am going to meditate every day for 28 days - one moon cycle.  There's nothing else auspicious about today other than beginning the blog ............oh, yeah, and its the birthday of one of my dearest friends.  So happy birthday to her and happy.........well, happy whatever to me - its a mystery.