Day # 2

Day 1 began with a high flying idea -- if I put myself out there, right on the edge..........well, either I would soar to new heights or plummet to the depths.  I spent time in meditation and it was peaceful and full of joy.  And so I began my first blog adventure with a promise to myself and the world that I would continue on this path for 28 days - a moon's cycle.  That felt right...........and I have heard that anything that is continued for that length of time will become a habit.  And what a pleasant, fulfilling habit that would be for me.

And so on Day 2 of my resolution I lit a candle, a stick of  incense and began again.  The session began in earnest and I felt myself sinking into the 'zone'.  But then came an unwanted thought and another and another.  And rudest of all came the thought of a person that I find most annoying.  I fell down, down, down the rabbit hole of thinking and remembering.  I recalled snatches of conversations with this person, feelings welled up - irritation, mostly.  I realized that my meditation time was being kidnapped by this thought.  Where was the peace?  the stillness?

I began again - this time concentrating on a breath cycle (one in breath; one out breath).  I managed two, I believe, before the annoying person and my irritable feelings showed up again.  I sighed..........and then chuckled at myself.  I decided to breathe in 'love' and breathe out 'loving kindness', first to myself and then to this person.  (this is something I have learned over time - if you're interested, google "loving kindness meditation" and you'll find sufficient reading there to help you get the point).  The end result is that the irritation dissipated and I moved out of the rabbit hole and back to the peace and stillness of the meditation -- which carried me forward into the day........

Its only Day 2 and I've tumbled down a rabbit hole.  Ahhh!  The journey continues.